Home Vs. School

Lately I have been racking my brain over some thing that didn't absolutely suck to put up here. I know I've been ignoring my blog for the most part since I've been home from school, after all I have only posted eight times in the month of May. ( By the way, Happy June.) And I feel rather terrible about it. After all, I'm sure all you avid readers get annoyed checking day after day to see if there is some new and exciting incite to my life. Probably praying I haven't written anything new and awkward about reproduction (don't worry, I have nothing new to say about that... not until school starts up again). And yet again and again you find nothing but the mundane, often erratic thoughts of the past few weeks. It's just that lately I haven't had anything new or exciting to write about. That or I come home simply to exhausted to catalog my thoughts, and instead just spend the evening talking to Alan so I can make another day without losing my mind. Now, too be honest, I still don't have too much to say without writing up a bunch of things I'm sure you'd rather not here. But I've had the past two weekends to relax, something thats been much needed, and I can finally think a little clearer.

For the most part coming home for summer has been less of a break than the term "summer break" implies. For those of you who don't know, I have no bedroom because Logan got that when I left. Now, there is still a bed in the room for me to use if I so chose... but to spend every night going to bed when Logan does, worrying about waking him up, or him waking me up, just doesn't sound very restful to me. So I sleep on the couch, which isn't all that restful either but it's better than not. The only other problem with sleeping on the couch is that all of my clothes cannot stay in the living room. So every night I have to go rescue my pajamas, and clothes for the next day out of Logan's room, before he goes to bed. Usually I'm good about remembering, but every once in a while I'll forget an article of clothing and have to hold my breath in the morning to sneak in and retrieve it, or go with out it. That obviously is a big difference from having a somewhat organized closet and I nice cushy loft back at school.

I also think that during the time I've been home my stomach has shrunk. Its not as though we don't have food, its just a very different style of eating than I had become accustomed to at Tech. My mom and Logan are more of grazers, who would prefer to eat little meals all day long. Jeremy, Mikey, Mike and I tend to enjoy heavy meals. With that combination, and everyone not usually being home for lunch, we tend to eat heavy dinners, or fast food. During the weekends when we're all home for lunch they tend to be very light and snacky- and later in the day. At work I eat light lunches of whatever I packed and parts of what ever I'm feeding the baby. That compared to school, its almost completely opposite. At Tech I consistently ate large lunches at 11:00. Usually these were really large salads, London broil, NY strip steak, or Pot Roast and lots of sides. Most of the time I ate meals that stuck to my sides, or that were very fresh and healthy. For dinner it was usually smaller- sweet potato fries, a sandwich, maybe some pizza or a taco, and at 5:00. Theres a very big difference between the two styles for sure, and I think that when I go back to Tech in August I'll have to get used eating there again as well.

The biggest difference between being at school (besides Logan of course) and home (which is also the thing I miss most), is being able go up to Alan's room at the end of everyday. I still get to talk to him everyday- which is always the highlight of my day. But sometimes when I have a rough day when absolutely nothing seems to be going right (or a week where thats the case, like the one which just ended) I really miss being able to go up and be wrapped in his arms, or watch him do his work, or in general just be around him. Because when I'm around him everything bad just absolutely melts away.

But of course summer will be over in a bit over two months now, and then I'll have to adjust again to a ridiculous schedule and really tough classes. I think it will be less stressful than home though, which is good because I don't need any more grey hairs.